My Testimony

  James Selph

I am always happy to share y testimony wherever the opportunity presents itself.  When God showed up and saved me from the very edge of death itself, I was at the point in my life where I was saying the end as being better than what I was living.  And I don’t believe I was wrong.   But my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ stepped in and gave me a better life worth living.  
   I spent my late teens and early 20’s working and going to school and going to OCS for the National Guard, all with the mindset of making others proud of me.  All the while, not realizing I was sliding down the road to alcoholism.  I didn’t drink every day, but when I did drink it was to get drunk and leave all the stresses in my life behind for the time. 
   Then it got to where I was mixing in speed to go with it to keep up my hectic schedule.  I was doing all this while hiding it from the people I wanted to make proud of me.  Because I could not live with the thought of letting them down and not living up to the standard I was wanting to show on the outside.
   I had a great paying job and became an officer in the Army National Guard.  But my drinking and partying began to go from just on the weekend to whenever the opportunity arose.  And then those times began to interfere with my job and career.  I was driving a brand new Trans-am and was in debt so far I couldn’t see daylight.  Needless to say, my persona I was trying to show was falling apart.  I was on the verge of losing my job now.  My life was completely falling apart at this time.  All of this came to a head on the night Jesus Christ saved me.
   I was drunk and high and feeling as low as I could be.  I was wishing I could end it all instead of looking people in the eye if they knew the truth.  I was driving on the interstate about 1:30 in the morning.  Things had been crazy as usual that night.  Tears were streaming down my face and rain was falling on the windshield.  When I see police lights ahead of me, I’m thinking there must be an accident when I see police lights behind me as well.  I didn’t even realize that I was going 140 mph and it was me they were after.  My thinking was that there was no way I would get out of this without going to jail.  And I knew I could not live with letting everyone down and showing them what a real failure I had become.  I made a decision that I could simply jerk the steering wheel into the median at that speed and in the rain and it would all be over and dome with. That was my solution. 
   At that very instant, a calming feeling came over me and I had a sense that someone had just sat down in the passenger seat of my car.  It felt to me as if both my grandfathers who had passed away were there to talk to me.  Then a voice spoke to my heart and told me that my way was not what I was going to do.  He told me that there was a way that He was going to show me if only I would trust in Him and let Him save me.  I felt total peace and I felt a weight taken off my and I could breathe.  I can’t tell you where the police were.  But I drove on home and had the 1st night’s sleep I had had in several months.  I woke up the next day and did not have the desire for a drink or any stimulant.  I had to have a friend of mine who was a Christian explain to me what I had experienced.  I can tell you that Jesus Christ saved my life and my soul that night. 
   Now my life has not been a storybook life since then.  Not by a long shot.  But I can tell you that even in my hardest times I know that I wasn’t going through them alone.  That Jesus Christ is and was there with me through them all.  And He is there to do the same for you as well.  Now my story could fill a book of the things I could tell of Jesus  in my life.  But I will just keep this one to my salvation story.  That night puts the verse from Matthew 11:28-29 in perspective to me.  “Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest…..rest for your soul”.  I thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope it will help in some way.  On The Way Home walk with Jesus and He will give you “rest for your soul.”